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My 3 little ducks are my children Shayne, Zachary and Geogia. Divorce hit me hard but not as hard as a man I had known for 20 years a man I would later find out had other women throughout our whole marriage, a man who said he never wanted children a man who would always say u wanted them u deal with them. Often referring to my oldest child as idiot or stupid. This man was also motivated by boys toys and money his child support bill was alot he would then do the unthinkable my children brainwashed, they walked out my door one day telling me they loved me to telling me they never wanted to see me again. I remember that phone call like it was yesterday my daughter made the call.
I was in shock I remember the tears Rolling down my cheeks. This was 6 years ago it’s destroyed me in every way. It’s the first time I had heard the word narcissist, it was then I knew I had been living with one for almost 20 years, the dictionary definition described my ex husband perfectly and I never knew.
He has gone on to remarry have another child. I went on a road of self destruction the pain was just intolerable, I would of preferred a diagnosis of cancer at least there is medication for the pain.
8 years I’ve held on I can’t hold on anymore . I will never understand why. I will never understand why they hate me so much . Messages from my son were heartbreaking, cruel, and one side of the story they have been molded into hatred. I don’t know what’s left for me now or where I go to now but to my 3 beautiful children I say goodbye mummy will leave you alone and I wish you all the best in life. To my ex husband who lives the perfect life erasing me from my children I thank you for destroying me I would never of done this to you. After 18 years of marriage you left me with a death sentence.
It was February 2010 when I got the call that my kids no longer wanted me
in there lives, I was 39 today I turn 48 and wonder if they are thinking about me.
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Even if all is lost your journey may save someone else and more importantly their children from alienation.
30 years ago my god seems like an eternity I guess it kind of is. Proudly I know it made me who I am today
And would be what I would use to get me through some of lives toughest battles.
To my fellow comrades who also joined 8/2/88 Alpha Class of GE41 thank you for your service