I’ve been alone since I was 21 that’s when I got married that went for 17 years,yes still alone, and the last 8 years single by choice and yes you guessed it alone. But now because of some very cruel people I live with SOCIAL ANXIETY how lucky am I. I rarely go out isolation becomes your friend. Pre marriage I was always a very extroverted woman this part of my personality only seen by family and old friends. I do often laugh at my own jokes lol.
Lonely, sometimes sure but my marriage mentally abusive, the loss of my children to PARENTAL ALIENATION SYNDROME, I knew it would be a long period of time before I even felt my heart beating since it was ripped from my chest the pain still lingers and I guess it always will.
But I know this man and he would be the man that saw me from the inside out this man cared enough and saved my life, he knows how I feel I just blurted it out recently then I started to feel that pain again he left it a couple of weeks he preceded to tell me he has cancer. What did I do to deserve no happiness in my life, he doesn’t want me wasting my time but maybe time is all we have. I think about him often and he is in my heart like it or not so I don’t believe I’m lonely anymore.