Buying Love

When the kids were erased out of my life, I thought awesome presents would bring them back.. But it seemed their manners the way I raised the had also been erased, not so much as a thank you nothing.. So from that point on I became a wannabe crafty woman, I made them scrapbooks,  Coloured metal plates designed with puffy paint and glitter, of course it made no difference.

This week however I sent the 3 of them a very nice watch each, I don’t have a lot of money scraped & saved you know what it’s like.  I guess for me the watches symbolised how time just flys by, I wanted them to realize that too late is just that and can’t be undone, I should rephrase I was hoping they would realize.

The inscription on the back of each one reads ” I was always there, now I’m here.

Will this have any emotional effect on them I don’t know, same questions I’m always asking, 

Picture quality not the best my apologies.

DO THEY THINK ABOUT ME?

DO THEY MISS ME?

DO THEY LOVE ME?

Decode u took the lives of my 3 children and u tore mine apart.. And I Used to know u so well…One day u will relise the damage u have done to my kids or will u even b around to give a rats ass #deanowilliams

The Narcissist has had control of my emotion’s for 7 years.. 

If your husband leaved you for another woman the Marriage is clearly over so why does he still want to control the wife he no longer wishes to be married to. And how does the homewrecker not see this happening.  Its clear the mind of the narcissist is devoted to two people one to love and one to destroy.

I had been cheated on for 17 years and I mean the entire marriage.  He has broken up homes, my best friend married 4 children gutted by the deceit. Her husband a great bloke caught them in bed together, I wish he had of shared the information at through time it would of changed the course of history for me and my 3 children and given me back 5 wasted years.

I know know the lies of working late, interstate travel, dinners, the list goes on were all a fabrication in his secret world of women. AndI believed him why because I didn’t see any reason whatsoever he would lie to me, because it wasn’t just me he was lying to it was his family his children.

He and the homewrecker went on to marry had a child and that’s great I hope he treats her well and not the doormat I was the one that put up with the drunken confrontations, and lies.  I then ask myself how could this woman now herself a mother condone the alienation of another mother, does she ever wonder if one day it could be her, I guess it just shows the poor character of these people.

I have finally released the control of this narcissistic bastard and thanks to Veterans Affairs am in trauma counselling for severe PTSD. My heart will be forever broken but to gain the tools to have empowerment over my pain I can learn to live again.